Things were not getting any better. Monsieur Meursault did not show any good attitute toward things and he just showed a bored attitude and just not caring. I think it increadible being in such a critique situation and not caring at all, he is just so natural about it that just thinks about going to bed or being hot because of the sun. He just does not understan what is happening, he is really upset because he cannot talk in his jury , but that will not be a help at all for what his attitude has been all the time. Another thing that is beaing a problem is that they are not basing so much in the gravity of the cas but in his past actions so they are judging him for that ''The prosecutos and my lawyer, there was a lot said about me, maybe more about me than about my crime'' (Pg.99). He still felt as if everything was a joke and everything is a game because e does not care at all for what is happening. Nothing mucha happens, he starts day dreaming while he is in the court, starts thinking about Marie annd her dresses and laugh. When the judge asks Meursalt why he kills the arab he says ''because of the sun'' (Pg.103). He does not even know what he is saying he acts in suck a ridicoulous way that everytime he opend his mouth to say something things got worse.Then '' the judge told me in bizzare language that I was to have my head off in a public square'' (Pg. 107) After that happend he started to think about things, things that maybe mattered more than the things he usually thought about. He remember Maman telling him that his dad went once to watchg a murder being excecuted. '' I remember feeling a little disgusted by him at that time. But now I understood, it was perfectly normal( Pg.110) He preffers to be an espector than the one being executed. Eventhough his attitude has not changes a lot he is thinking a little more about reality and about what is happening. ''i would try to picture the exact moment when the beating of my heart would no longer be going on inside my head'' (Pg. 113) In this part is when he starts realizing more that things are bad. ''That is why I ended up sleeping only a little bit...the hardest time was he uncertain hour when I knew they they usually set to work''(pg.113) When he starts thinking about his life, which I think is good because he starts thinking about the meaning and things that would of cared before to him but he only puts attention to it in the most unespected moment. '' I would always begin by assuming the worst: my appeal was denied''(pg.114) But he takes also a wrong attitute, because he thinks that people are going to realize that life is not worth living which is not true, you should manage your life to make it worth. ''Since we're all going to die, it is obvious that when and how do not matter''(Pg.114) He no longer cared about his life, and he didn’t think about the people that cared about him. Then in almost the end of the book, the chaplain comes in and he try to do everything sdo he starts beliving in good but he refuses. ‘’I did not believe in God’’ (pg.116) He does not change his attitude, he is a man that shows no feelings. “ I felt that I had been happy and that I was happy again. For everything to be consummated, for me to feel less alone.”(123). He does not care about anything and the mos absurd thing is that everything that he is going trow he does not realize and he does not understand his punishment. "And I felt ready to live it all again too. As of that blind rage has washed me clean, rid of me of hope; for the first tiem, in that night alive with signs and stars, I opened myself to the gentle indifferece of the world. Finding it so much like myself, so like a brother, really, I felt that I had been happy and that I was happy again."(Pg.122-123.)
At the end he realizes he has been a complete stranger to everything around him, and eventhough its in the moment that he cannot do anything about it, better late than ever
